Not often enough do i stop and look back at my life. The older i get, days feel like seconds and years feel like days. Its easy to get lost in the hustle of life. Not often enough do i realize that i lead a life of beauty in darkness, like a beautiful painting in a dark room. The painting doesn’t get the thought or love it deserves. I say this because i don’t appreciate the moments of triumph I’ve had over seemingly bleak circumstances or i don’t reflect on my extraordinary heritage. People, family before me, overcoming hardships that i can’t fathom. I come from a family of hard workers, with can-do attitudes that surpass racial, social, and economic turmoil. Most of my friends back home will understand the immigrant state of mind and lifestyle. But a lot of people can not relate at all.
I am bombarded by minuscule complaints from my peers, believing that they are going through “hardships”. Yes, everything is relative, but not to me. Not in my eyes. I grew up with grandparents living through a Japanese invasion, a dad who grew up fighting racial and social punches, and a mom who literally grew up sleeping in a rice sack. To me, those are hardships. For them to not only grow through it and bring up a thriving, beautiful family. That is overcoming hardships. I feel as if people complain more, rather than appreciating the simple things happening in our lives. Like…we can turn on a light, eat breakfast, shower with warm water, and DRIVE to work. The society around me is driven by instant gratification. Most of my peers do not have a grasp of hard work and manageable pain. The people around me choke my positive mindset, their negativity cements my feet so i drown in their sea of despair. Please understand that negative thoughts never create a positive world, but positive thoughts will chip away at a negative world and spur on beauty.
I know to take their heavy negative hearts lightly, because they are not me and i, not them. In time, like everything negative in my life, they will slowly fade away. I will be able to see where beauty thrives and appreciate my family before me and in turn, like them, i will be seen in the light of beauty by the ones after me.
Lets look for the beauty in our lives, daily. It can be a kiss or hug you got from a love one or a lady bug landing on your shirt or a smile from a cute guy or gal. Do not dwell in a negative mind set or the bad things in our lives, because it is fuel for more negativity. It is easy to complain, but harder to see the good in the bad. We have all been told is some shape or form that the best things in life are never easy. Don’t go for the easy way out, because that never leads to sustained happiness. We all want to be happy…right?
work hard, vault high